Larger than Life

I started modelling because I needed a job that wouldn’t make demands on my brain – and I foolishly thought that modelling wouldn’t. I was ill, and no longer able to do the PR job I had done before, I had problems with memory, words, speech at times – so a silent job had great appeal.

My first point of contact was a friend who’d done some modelling the year before as part of a review of her life – she’d joined RAM, the Register of Artists Models, and recommended it to me, so that is what I did. She was full of very practical advice, like take a robe that covers a lot of you… She also said they would love me, because I have flesh.

My first modelling experience was a good foretaste of what was to come – a grotty studio crammed with people who didn’t talk to each other, a minimum of moderating from the tutor who’d change his mind about poses but made no actual recommendations himself, easels that collapsed all the time, a tiny screen behind which to change.

I was modelling alongside a slim, pretty, young, red haired student who was trying out modelling as a way of earning some money while she studied. i thought that she would inspire the best drawings, yet during the break, as I wandered round and looked at the images, I found one man who’d done a huge A3 drawing of the red haired girl sitting on a chair – then up in the corner, about the size of a playing card, he’d drawn a back view of me sitting on the floor – the drawing of me had life, energy, it made my arse look like a smile – the drawing of the girl was mechanical, inert, lacking in individuality – this made me realise that you can’t legislate for what the artists will produce.

The most important source of work is word of mouth, through other models, tutors and individual artists. I do a fair bit of straight forward marketing of myself to recognised art schools.

I don’t do photography – I hate the idea that someone else has got naked photos of me – so I am only looking for life sculpting, drawing and painting work, the least lucrative area of work for artists’ models.

Being a larger artist’s model means you have a USP as a big woman. There are famous artists who have done remarkable paintings of large women; Lucian Freud, Jenny Saville, Henry Moore etc. The bad point is that you are not a commercial norm – artists who make a living from selling their work are much more likely to be painting dancers or other suitably slim women than someone like me.

There are some ridiculous negatives as well, such as the screen providing a tiny changing area that would challenge a tiny pixie to change in it without knocking over the screen, and tutors rarely understand the difference between a slim circus performer doing a pose and someone who is big doing the same. Effectively you are doing weight training when you pose as a fat person. If they want a pose where I am raised up on my arms, then 20 minutes really is my maximum. I just wish people wanted poses with legs in the air, because I’d be good at that after years of riding. My belly gets in the way if I want to sit up with my arms wrapped round my knees.

My breasts are a big advantage, so I have to try to pose without covering them up.

Advantages to being larger – I am always surprised when I hear my thin model mates talking passionately about cushions, mattresses etc & saying they hate working at X because there are no pillows. Me, so long as I’ve got my sheet or fleece blanket, I am quite happy posing on the floor or a table or a hard chair – in fact, I prefer it. I hate standing on a cushioned surface, makes me feel very precarious.

Finance Doing my tax return always reminds me just how hard it is to make a real living from modelling alone. The hourly rate might look higher than minimum wage, but it’s a classic iceberg job – the bit you are paid for, the visible bit – the posing, uses up the least time – you spend much more time travelling from job to job, doing the admin, marketing yourself & networking.

That said, I’ve loved the world I’ve found through modelling; the people, the artists, and everyone coming to a class. I like the opportunity for meditating the job gives me, and I like the meditative effect it has on the people drawing. The structure of the class gives me a discipline for meditation, which has very direct benefits on my health.

While I like working with classes, i think now I’d like to model more for individual artists. I think I’ll target some whose work I like.

I really enjoy sitting for portraits; I am a dab hand with a turban and have a selection of amazing hats and jewellery, so I want to promote myself as an interesting portrait model this year. I like dressing up like a daft thing – I do a good wedding guest, gypsy queen, classic English country gentlewoman (lotsa pearls), or middle aged Goth. The last fancy dress party I went to I went as a jellyfish, so dressing up appeals. I might also explore the opportunity to do some modelling as a couple, if I can find a man to work with who doesn’t look a tad ludicrous alongside my bulk. I think doing some Rodinesque modelling would give me a laugh as well as being more lucrative.

An active market for life art would ensure its survival – and work for models.

I want people to buy a painting because they like it, not because they think it will increase in value or because it shows what good taste they have. David Miliband’s 13 dancing naked women are a great example. After the painting was slammed in the Daily Telegraph by Stephen Bayley as a ‘regrettable purchase’ and ‘middle-brow junk’, Miliband himself went on record in the Mail saying ‘We bought it because it put a smile on our faces. And yes, we could afford it… I know I like our naked dancing women more every time people like Stephen Bayley attack it.’

Read more:

Bayley’s ‘awful painting’ article;

Feminine Transmission

Spirited Bodies has entered its enfoldment phase prior to next week’s event.
Today I began to meet with the participants, and I feel the magic taking hold.
I am so inspired by each amazing woman coming forward to shed a layer and be captured on canvas. They are maverick theatre directors, ground-breaking social entrepreneurs, political dynamite, yogic yonis and instinctive divas. I can’t believe they want to take time out to undress at The Mall, but the message is clear: there is a need to come out nude.
I am aware that this is partly a national/international phenomenon at present, and where I’m tapping it is personal connection, so focusing heavily on women’s empowerment.
I have been greatly inspired lately by The Women on Fire, and I shall say no more but leave you with this breath-taking message from founder, Judith Seelig.

We are all Spirited Bodies

My name is Morimda and I came up with the idea of Spirited Bodies because I realised when I was telling people about what I do as a life model, they thought it was amazing – their faces (especially women) would light up. One friend told me I could use what I do to empower other women, as so many women (and men) have a negative body image.

I want to show you what I look like normally, made up, and in paint. I have many looks like all women, all people; and as an artist’s model I get to see myself in a wide variety of looks.
I have been modeling for a long time and when I began I was very shy. I would hardly speak, but I have always had a strong physical nature. Through modeling, which is normally a quiet activity, I have acquired a voice.

Welcome to Spirited Bodies

Hello Spirited Bodies! This is home; and perhaps the beginning to looking like a website.
This is a place for the brave and the beautiful to connect in silent and vocal harmony. We would love everyone to find their spirited body.
We are black, white and every colour, size, global North and South calling every Spirited Body!
We are women and we might not have children; we are our own class with our own education. We love freedom of self expression and we are Spirited Bodies!
We are part of a body-love-revolution and we are women on fire!
This image was styled and created with Isabella Beirer (©Isabella Beirer Photography), Marcela Benadova & Sunanda Mesquita

Conspiracy uncovered

I did call myself a conspiracy theorist for a short while!

I really believe the world is created in the way that we look at it. So if we want to change it…. we need to change the way we look. That may begin with the way we look at ourselves.

So if I’m standing nude in front of a bunch of artists, and I’m feeling ‘I should have shaved, it’s a shame I’m not more curvy, and did I pluck my nipples?’ then what may be reflected back to me is some endearing self-consciousness.

If I think, ‘You know what – I just want to get laid’, then going to the pub with them afterwards will likely produce a desired result.

If I’m wondering, ‘How the hell am I going to get this project to take off?’ then I think it’s tone of thought that applies. I guess the advice would be ‘Consider that it already is. It is alive, active, organic, and it happens because people – not just me – want it to.’

Of course I need to let people know about it, and somehow get freed up to connect with the right people. Katherine Baldwin (JustasIam40 blog) informed me of  ‘The Endangered Species Summit’ in New York, which would have been an ideal opportunity. Katherine has given up negative thoughts about her body for lent.

At least I made it to the ‘Women of the World Festival’ on the Southbank – London. And even more magically, had an opportunity to tell a high profile female panel about Spirited Bodies. That I came across as a raging feminist conspiracy theorist may require some styling out! But not all of my message felt fearful; just an urgent passion to release women from the bondage of image may have sounded crankily religious, almost power-mongering and downright out of touch with the celebrities present reluctance to take part themselves.

So following my own advice, I WILL(!) stop worrying about this; and think many blessed, abundant and liberated thoughts as I pose, when I swim, as I pedal and while I breathe.